Loving Through 10 Years.
April 11th 2012 to April 11th 2022 has been a decade that I will never forget, for many reasons but the most important one is that decade transformed my life in every single way.
April 11th 2012 was the beginning of the end. The end of life as I had known it and the beginning or rebirthing as I like to call it of my new life. The transformation that would take place in this 10 year period would change me forever. Aprill 11th, is the day that I said goodbye to the most amazing soul, the one I chose to be my mom and the one who allowed this process to begin. I would have never believed that 9 months later my dad would follow her and then 4 years later my sister. What I have learned in this space of 10 years is that I chose this family and I chose these lessons. I learned you can heal and forgive people who are not here in human form and that love has no boundaries, that it does not matter if they are another realm. I know angels are real and that I have 3 important ones and many others that are always guiding and loving me. I learned family doesn’t mean blood. Family is surrounding yourself with people who see you, love you, hear you and allow you to grow. I learned you are never alone, that we can feel alone, but never are truly alone and in this knowing I am now in a place of peace with being alone.
5 years ago I left a life that I never thought I could or would, but on that one day I chose me. I learned the most important work we will ever do is the work on ourselves. I finally learned that we can not change anyone or anything, but when we change ourselves, thoughts and feelings everything can change. I learned what love was not and found what love is. I felt love for the first time in my life and that changed everything. I learned we should look at our kids as souls not “our” children and how we can learn so much from them if we are willing and open to. I have seen how the break up of a family can change everyone so differently and in so many ways. I have witnessed the beauty in the souls who chose me as a mom and I have witnessed heart ache in the knowing that I can not change anything for them.
I learned it doesn’t matter what you have, material things are just things, but who you are, that is what matters. I learned the art of listening and how important it is. I knew my belief in age is only a number to be true, because at any moment in your life you can change and transform however you want. I found the little girl who had been waiting for me, the one who dreamed, who loved loved and who knew her purpose in this lifetime. I learned to trust, believe and most importantly to let go….
10 years seems like a long period of time when you think of the future, but when you look back on 10 years, it seems like it went in a blink of an eye. Some people wonder how you can go through so much in 10 years, but I feel so blessed, I was and still am loved by the souls who had to leave. All of the things that I thought would once kill me only made me stronger, in my faith, in my love and in my knowing.
Whenever I leave this lifetime I will not have regrets because I chose and will keep choosing me. To live in the now, not in the past or the future. To live in gratitude for each morning and each night. I now know what I want in life. I trust myself, listen to my soul and release my control. I know the Universe always has our back and wants us to have everything and more in this life time. I am proof that love can carry us through anything, but you have to chose love. Love has no boundaries, no expectations, no limits, it is in each and everyone of us. Love is one of the most powerful and beautiful connections we all share.
Loving Through every single moment of life-XO-Rach