The Other Shoe.

Have you ever felt you were waiting for the other shoe to drop? That there was no way life could be good or that person, place, or thing would last or even happen? Why is it that when something good enters, we want to sit in fear and worry about it leaving instead of enjoying whatever it is in the moments we have? I never believed I was worthy of all the good, so the shoe always dropped.

I never entirely understood why this happened and was starting to accept my life would never be anything but shoeless. Looking back on my whole life, I would see all the times I thought things were moving in the right direction, but there was always a but! But then this happened, and then that happened, and the story went on and on. I realized how my thoughts and beliefs constantly led to that shoe falling off. I never thought I was worthy of good. Whenever something “good” happened, I would wait and not get my hopes up that it would last or stay because it never seemed to. I never wanted to see lessons or signs. I just wanted things to be how I wanted them to be.

I know today that if we don’t look at the signs and lessons, we will repeat cycles until we change our thoughts and way of life. If we don’t believe we are worthy of a partner or a job, that is more than likely what will happen. It has nothing to do with a dark cloud around us but the dark cloud we create. The hardest life lesson is to believe in ourselves and that we are worthy of everything we want. When we don’t get what we want and have that belief in ourselves, it is a sign that it is not for us. Sometimes, those are the hardest to understand, but I believe that means something better is coming.

I try to live without attaching an outcome; it is a work in progress and a daily struggle. We must first have self-love and the awareness that we are not in control of what or how we want things to be or go. We must embrace the good moments and the good stuff with gratitude and ride the waves of the challenges. Waiting for the other shoe to drop is a waste of our energy.

I know I would rather be shoeless, not because I am afraid for any shoes to drop, but because I have learned how to ground myself through anything. XO-Rach