One Year.

When you consider your whole life, one year doesn’t seem like a long time. We are constantly changing every single moment of every day. But for me, one year has changed almost everything in my life.

When I decided to move to a new city and state, I felt ready. But then again, are we ever ready for significant changes in our lives? Nothing can prepare you because you can’t predict the future. You only have the moment of now. If you could see your future you probably would change what you are doing in some of your moments, but then how would we ever grow and evolve?

A year ago, I was packing and getting ready to go on the biggest journey of my life, and if someone had told me all that would come, I know I would have never left. I thank God no one has that power because even though this has been a tough year, full of more downs than ups at times, I would not change it for the world. Crazy, I know. But I am alive and have learned so much about myself that has made me stronger even when I felt broken.

I have questioned myself more times than I could count and cried more tears than I knew I had, but I made it through this year. I almost feel like I am on the show Survivor, but instead of winning a cash prize, I won a lifetime of lessons and growth! Believe me, some days I would have and could have used that cash prize, but man, I will take what I have learned and grown from because it has allowed me to love myself more. It made me look at things that I didn’t want to see and feel things I didn’t want to feel, but it also showed me more than I could have asked for.

The beauty of life and not knowing a thing about the future is learning who you are. Looking into that mirror and seeing who you are. That can be the toughest thing you ever do in this lifetime, but I am here to tell you it is the best thing you will ever do. No, you don’t need to move to another state, but you do need to take those leaps of faith, try new things, and believe in yourself as a soul. Loving and trusting ourselves is not easy, but nothing in this world is.

Our mind can lead us to spaces we fear, but if we start listening with our hearts, we can find the love to move through anything. XO-Rach